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 Jamica. known as JJ, AppleJam & Jam and is Happy. Canadian. Silly. Smart..?. Human!?!?. Ailens ♥ Fruits. Science. Art.
Painting. PS ♥. Hugs. Rainbows. COLORS. Animals ♥. Bettas. Ducks!! ♥. Pandas. Tigers.
BUNNIES. Goldfish.
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1. Finish university 2. Buy a car 3. Buy a house 4. Before doing 2, get a license! 5. Move to a nice city |
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March 10, 2011  Well the ELA project I worked so hard is not even going to be on my report card. FML. My average overall is going to roughly 78%. Enough to get into UBC Kelowna, hopefully U of A, U of C and Manitoba. I lessed stressed but I am still debating if I should retake Chemistry 30 Diploma. Hmm.I have been in pain lately, not the kind you can feel. My the one that are the inside. My mother's schooling hasn't been easy and she resorts to exploding her feelings on me. Sometimes in a painful fashion. I feel like my parents had put enough shit in life as they are the only thing that creates any unhappiness. Not boys, not school, not friends, nothing. Just them. Other really sad thing is my red betta has dropsy. He was the pretty red one with the green/purple metallic wash. I had him for 10 month now, I don't know how he got it but it pains me that he does because I will likely have to put him down. -sign- My animals mean a lot to me, they are a materialized form of my love IMO. I cherish, care, and are sort of their god. They represent a lot to me and I break when they get sick or die. I wander if that is what it feels like for a holy soul that watches over people on earth. I never believed in god, but I believe in something greater than god (because god = dog spelled backwards). This wonderful being of pure goodness, of pure light, acceptance and boundless love. I believe there is a soul, a spirit something out there like that. A god sits up in heaven and rules of people with boundless power yet he allows suffering, I refuse to believe in someone like that. This being doesn't sit in heaven, instead he is down here on earth, whispering us words of wisdom to help us be a better person. He teaches acceptance, forgiveness, love, goodness of a human soul and selfless acts not by making us sit in a building praising him. Instead he asks, we, through action, help deliver his message. I don't call this being 'god' because that is not what this being is. A little spiritual post but I hope all my loved animals end up under a holy and loving light.
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