Then on Saturday my dad called, my mother demanded that I confront him about him getting married and blah blah blah. He got scared I guess when he heard my mom yelling and hang up. W.T.F I didn't want to confront him about it because I was hoping he would tell me himself but once again I am disappointed. My mother then throughout dinner hated on my dad (I don't blame her) and blah blah blah. You can say it was a bad dinner. I couldn't get out of there either because she was talking to me but then I don't wanna hear it anymore.

I been hearing the problems about my parents since june 2009, its 2010, its over and I wish my mom would stop cursing, yelling and complaining about my dad. I get it, his a retard who gave up his family to be with hos. I get it all. I'll never forgive him for it either but can we PLEASE move on? My mom keeps telling him I should hate him too but then I when I do express hatred (because I am pissed off) she then tells me oh, we all make mistakes. The truth is despite all that happened, no one actually even considered how I feel about this. I want to move on but it seems everyone is stuck in the pass. My mom refuses to move on and she drags me back into the pass with her. Everyday she is like, look what your dad did to me, look my stupid life, my life is so patheic, look at how pitiful I am, I am not getting enough sleep, I am so depressed everyday thanks to your dad, I think I might die soon, I am never going to live long and blah blah blah. What do you want me to say? That my dad should tied to a log and cut to pieces?

I don't known why she says these things to me. To make me feel her sorrow, anger, annoyance with her? I really hate it when people say stupid gloomy pointless things to me, it ruins my whole day. Its like someone saying "My cat die and now I want to die too". You know it won't happen, you can't be mad because they are sad, its pointless and does not concern you but then it ruins your day. She says hates him to get guts but then she lets him in our house and etc. I told her to take him out of her life and URG. She is so contridicting. I can't even try to chat with her about it because she just freaks out and..urg. Yes, I had to grow up too fast. I had to learn how to cook, I have to learn how to take care my emotional broken down mother, I had to learn some pretty disgusting things about my dad. I lost my childhood thanks to my unstable parents.

But I plan to take it back, once I leave those two "complicated" people and go to unviersity I want my childhood back. I'll never think about the problems they have, I am going to study hard but I plan to wake up at noon, eat candy all day, play PSP and wii and I plan to live happily rater being annoyed 24/7.

I planned to study math and biology but I ended up studying niether. This weekend went by too fast, before I could sit down it disappeared. God, why do this always happen to me??

Speaking off god, I had a conversion with Louis and if God Exist, his not a wrathful mean guy who floods people and send people to hell for not worshipping him. His a COOL CHILL guy who likes to party and eat Doritos. He probably looks like Santa Claus minus the red suite. OK? GEEZ. Its not disrespectful to say he looks to Santa to you all conversative christians. BTW. If your hating on others because you can't accept them, your NOT going to heaven. I don't care if you hate in the name god, if you have hate in your heart you ain't going no where! I probably ain't going no where either, I like earth, might stay here a couple life times.

oookkkay its obvious I need sleep, nights.

Frosty and Mozart are both good to my relief.

Tomorrow I have a math quiz and a chem quiz. Hopefully I will do really well, I am scared silly for math because I did NO studying whatsoever after the last unit exam because I kept having other assignments due. Anyway did my biology quiz today, i think I did pretty well.

Tomorrow is Friday, finally the weekend is here. yay.

Second off, someting is wrong my betta fish which I owned for 7 month. He has weird sympotoms and I cannot identify the problem. All 2 and 1/2 years of research and you give me so brand new weird problem. URG. Don't die on me Danny.

Third off all my dad got married to some ho without even telling me. So he just got married and I DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW ABOUT IT. W.T.F. I am so pissed, at least he could have gave me a sign, a hint, ANYTHING. So his friend told his ex-wife who then told my mom. I knew he was messing around with em' hos but marry one? Fuck. This is just plain sadness and disppointment. Not only did you fuck up my high school year by flipping me around all over the place you decided to marry a ho. I mean she is ACTUALLY a ho, I just don't hate her for fucking my dad while he was married to my mom. She was dating like 8 guys before she married my dad. I wander why she chose him *cough*passport*cough*money*cough*. HO. Fuck this, if I ever re-read this. Jamica, make sure no one mess you up, be sure to stick a knife in them if they do, eh?

A side note, I actually didn't fail my chem quiz like I thought I did. I got 84% and I re-did my biology quiz, I think I did better (hopefully). I saw M**** today, his hair grew back, his hot again. Yay for sexy hair?

I studied until 12PM last night over math, and today I find out its open quiz. I should have went to bed at 11PM. Tomorrow I have my biology quiz, hopefully I can do really good on it. :) I am aiming for 100%! Hopefully I will get atleast 95%. I didn't study as hard this time, I know my stuff but lets see how luck treats me. I also signed up for a biology test contest, just to try it, it won't hurt to see how
good at biology I am.

I did really bad on my chem quiz. 11.5/18, sad eh? I didn't study so figures, other quiz on Friday. Its bigger so I plan on getting 90% or higher. haha :D

Anyhow I am watching this anime series called Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, its one of those cheesy fairytail girl stories but I kind of like it. I really hate those violent cartoons, this one is pretty good ^_^

On Friday, after visiting Louis I plan to go shopping for a present for my aunt. Its her Birthday today but my card is going to be late. Oh well, better late then never.

Alright nighty nighty :)

I should work harder. But I always say that, but I just get distracted so easily, its like programmed into me. URG.

Going to bed now.. did my sheep brain thing today, it was fun and smelly.

I realize how fast I wasted 2 days!! Time went flying by, tomorrow I have to wake up early so I can do my chemistry, math and social homework. On sunday, maybe I can finish up my biology. Then on Monday I need to finish studying, I have lots of quizzes coming up =/

The winter olympics has started in Vancouver today! Good luck to all the teams across the world. I really hope Canada wins Hockey. It would be sad if Canada loss.

As much as I support the olympics I think the money spend could have went to helping Aborginals, homeless shelters and other current issues Canada is facing. We spend 6 billion dollars on this thing. 6 billion dollars can built a lot of shelters, really improve the health care and more. =(

Anyhow its also Chinese New year Eve!! Happy new years to my family in China!! I miss you guys all very very much! I hope this year I accomplish more !

Well I talked to Mr. Selby and he like gave this long explaination a about my mark. GR. He said my mark was slowly dropping during report 3. But then one was I getting 80s and 90s on my tests? GR. Apparently for the writing part which is worth 40% of my overall mark.. was just 1 fucked essay! I did bad on it and my mark dropped. BOO. Summer school.

Tomorrow 2 quizzes, nothing to stressful but I really would to like start this semester with nice high marks in Bio and Chem so I reviewed. I think I will do ok.. I get it. I am aiming for 90+ so I hope I can do it and if I don't it just means I have to study harder. I am really aiming to the the sciences above 90% this time.

I want to do well, I need to do well. :)

Someone drove a stake through my ego, after all that hard work I manage to only get a 41% on my physics final. But I ran out of time and I guessed every question so.. figures but I still passed. 61%. haha. Summer school here I come.

What crushed me more was.. I have 73% in E.L.A which is.. STUPID. Its impossible, I did some calculating and the lowest I should have gotten with my final mark should have been at a min. 77%. My 3rd report card mark dropped by 8% but considering I didn't do that bad.. I don't understand. I plan to talk to my E.L.A teacher but he is one of those .. teachers. I might end up doing e.l.a for summer too. T_T

O. I need to get a 80%+ simply because Queens has high standards.

I did ok in Biology, the sad part was I only got 82% on my biology final so my 90% average drop by 2%. Ouch. I will work SUPER hard on Biology 30, its my diploma and I refuse anything below a 90%. If anything I am aiming for 95%.

My goals for this semester:

- Math = 80%

- Biology 30 = 90%+

- Social = 80%+

- Chem = 86%+


I need to do really well on sciences and really consider if I should do english over the summer. O. I feel so dumb, I really want to do early admissions.