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January 30, 2009

Time:10:11pm
Mood: Sad
Music: I hate this part - PCD
Drinking: Nothing
Eating: Nothing
Browsing: nothing much
Want to: leave...
I am so depressed today even though nothing should be depressing me. I had breakfast, lunch and dinner (with Jenny and Ninnart), I played Majiang for the first time and even played Tomb Raider for 2 hours. But I can't seem to shake the feeling of lonely-ness and annoyance of this place. I really want to go but I can't. You know how everyone is like a piece of a puzzle and they fit beautifully together? Well I am a piece that belong to this puzzle. Its hard to explain. I feel half-hearted again.

Tomorrow I have Volunteering, yay? I hope it goes well since its something at least I enjoy but then who knows what can happen in Victoria right? Anyways can't wait for Sunday too, I hope it turns out right too. LOL
I am shopping in the afternoon and maybe, if I feel like it. Eat a brownhall but who should I eat with? I haven't had dinner at brownhall for 2 weeks.. hmm.. I'll decide on that later. Maybe with Kira or even Ninnart. Blah who cares. Not Melanie right now since she is always eating with Cantos and it makes me feel left out when I have no clue what they are saying.

My cousin might visit me soon in Feb! I can't wait until I get to see him since well, I am very exicited. I haven't seen him in such a long time and I can't wait to see him and tell him how much I hate Victoria and SMUS, all the other things that happened. I want Mommy to come too, I want a apartment here with her so I can not be in boarding. If I can, leave smus to since I hate it. I cannot wait till June, I'll die. I'll die. WAHHHH. Nooo.. T-T.

Okay anyways for homestay I got one, but I might stay alone. WAAAAAHHHHH. Oh well atleast I get peace and quite. hmm. I hope I don't get a ugly homestay with place with like lots of ugly men and 1 bathroom. I demand for a lockable door! lol IF there is hot guys, then.. YAY!! lol okay Jamica.. stop dreamin. *muah*

I love myself but I hate my life right now. Anyone else feel this way?
Jamica ♥ ♥ 11:11 PM

January 29, 2009

Time:8:44PM
Mood: Relief and Annoyance
Music: some random person's bad singing
Drinking: Nothing
Eating: Nothing
Browsing: nothing
Want to: Rip your hand off

I am in English bored as hell, I am done my english project thank god. But still.. all this extra time not used. Sad. Today is Thursday so I have swimming afterschool and then I get pocket money. hurray! :D
I am so bored.
Anyways last night Ninnart gave me this AWESOME story idea. I am no longer is SMUS but Scary Monsters in Uniforms and Shields. Thats right! We are in a scary world of monsters and stuff so the first part of today, dear reader goes like this:

Vampire Princess Ninnart Bella and Adventurer Jamica enters the chambers of Evil Soul Snatcher Hayden. In order to survive this, the must pretend to type stupid Reports on killing birds. Thats right! In this dark slimy chamber, he chuckles out loud. We know that he eat the brains of many, his marbled yellow eyes stare at Ninnart. After all, one day Ninnart is going to marry a amazing hot deilicious sexy underwear model with on fire irrestiable six pack and defeat him.
woot.
So Jamica takes charge and confuses the evil soul snatcher with her report on Rosa Parks who seems to taste better but no longer here with us, but soul snatcher doesn't know that. Soooooooooo they survive!


EDIT


Dude, I cannot believe this I may have to stay at SMUS by myself until June. NO, that is unbearable. I refuse. I am to bitch at my parents till atleast I get out of boarding. I SWEAR TO FUCKIN the world, I.. ahhhh Boarding is horrible. I will NO MATTER WHAT, NOT BE IN BOARDING. IF boarding is.. like.. makes me miserable, then I'll leave with or without my parents permission. fuck that. good night.

Jamica ♥ ♥ 9:44 AM

January 27, 2009

Time:12:43PM
Mood: stinky
Music: Touch my Body - Marish Carey
Drinking: nothing
Eating: Crispers
Browsing: Nothing
Want to: Murder someone D<

I just had my math test, it wasn't too hard but I bet I got a lot of them wrong. It wasn't hard though. ^_^ Anyways TOMOROW is my earth science final, hahaha I haven't even bothered to study. Screwed as usual.
Then on Thursday my English project is due, yay for failing. gosh, just crazy.

I am terrified that I am likely to stay Victoria until June. I don't want to!! Noooo, my dad won't let me leave and my mom thinks it will be too hard for her. So anyways there is a other chance that she might leave in Victoria and that I can get out of boarding. I don't wanna stay in boarding, I rather die.

I am gonna force my dad to get me out, even it means hunging up on him and screaming at him over the phone. I AM NOT IN BOARDING AFTER FUCKIN SPRING BREAK, I swear on my grave. good day.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 1:36 PM

yooo

January 26, 2009

Time:7:32PM
Mood: Back on Track
Music: Love Story - Taylor Swift
Drinking: Water
Eating: Smarties -_______-;
Browsing: MSN
Want to: get mommy to come >.<



so much work this week! Today was my english test, I got 70% on it. Yea I know and I found out I got 85% on my Earth Science Midterm. Tomorrow is my math test, I am not even close to being done the review package. I also have my Earth Science Final on Wednesday and hmm, I don't know, my huge English project is due on Thursday and on Friday.. ha, my IT project is due which I am not close to done. Which leaves the question, WHY THE HELL ARE YOU BLOGGIN??


Well, just to keep you informed. I think I ate too much smarties .__.; So lame.
Aaaannnyways its a crazy week, last week was a huge bummer with some really hurtful news and not to mention I been drugged. lol
Yeaaaaa, the news was that my parents are splitting and all the other shit. So real bummer but its okay because my mom will very likely, before March come back to Canada and maybe Victoria. WHICH MEANS: NO MORE BOARDING! wooooooooooottt. I hate boarding. Bad food, loud people and no privacy! I hope my mom rents a place close to here so I don't have to eaten fuckin Brown hall EVER. haha Fuck Brown hall, that places scares the fuckin hell out me and it taste gross. I can't wait till my mother comes and I can live with her in my own room. Next year, if I become a day student at other school I'll have my own room. ^____________^! So happy.


lol okay I'll stop dreaming, anyways I promised to post some pictures of me, chris and ninnart in downtown. they look cheesy, especially my ninnart-girly. lol



I am so weak D=



This is a nice picture. ^-^



Ninnart at her most lovely look, isn't she prutty?



*huuugs*


Hmm yea thats it for today! Wish me luck on all my assignments & tests! have a nice day :D

Jamica ♥ ♥ 8:32 PM

January 25, 2009

Time:10:38PM
Mood: devlish
Music: Beautiful - Akon
Drinking: water
Eating: Yogos
Browsing: nothing
Want to: fuckin kill all my teachers fuuuuuucccccccck

I feel overwhelmed right now! I have so much homework and I am still not done, I am still trying to catch up with all my work. I have my english quiz tomorrow so I am studying my ass off and I my Math Booklet due soon then my english project. AHHH. FUCK EVERYTHING. stresssssssss.

Anyways today is Chinese New Year so happy Chinese new year to you :) I hope you recieved a hong bao! Hope you get money.
On Friday me, Ninnart & Christina went to downtown together. It was fun we took stupid pictures.. too lazy to upload, maybe I will upload it on the next post. We had Chinese for dinner, I liked my food. Today I went to Purple Garden and had tones of mussles! It was so yummy, I love mussles. hehe.

Tomorrow for lunch I am just going have yogurt or something, I fuckin hate fuckin brownhall, I wish brownhall would burn up and disappear! grrrr.
lol I hope I loose a lot of weight, then I am going to work m muscle then I WILL HAVE A FUCKIN 6 PACK!! WATCH OUT >_< lol

Yeah today I rented a game from Rogers it was okay, I think Ninnart will like it. I should have rented like a different one.
Hmm yea, anyways I should go.

Miss breakfast, lunch & dinner @ brown hall. I HATE IT.. it scares me.. okay bye.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 11:36 PM

January 22, 2009

Time:8:10PM
Mood: Sleep-grief
Music: Ninnart's humming.. bad humming
Drinking: nothing
Eating: lets not mention that
Browsing: like Tinpic
Want to: stab someone in the eye

so I haven't wrote much lately as.. many of you have noticed but you probably know why anyways. :P Things been.. complicated and I don't think I have enough courage to write everything out with a metal break down. To give you an idea of what the hell is going on, I have not ate proper food for 3 days and have not slept for 3 days counting so yeah. I have so many people.. talkin to me and my family is torn apart. My house is going to be sold and I think I want to leave SMUS.
I hate brown hall more then ever but now is afraid of it and been talking to toast lately. So as you can see, i have completely gone insane.

Mrs. Jackson will be doing some type of session with me to help but I think I'll just lie there and wait till morning comes. but hey, I have a double spare tomorrow which means THANK YOU Mr. Lilly, you are my hero!! LOL
Poor Ninnart is stuck in Business watching Fast Food Nation and porn by herself! HAHAHAHA yeah... see abnormal acts of laughter. I'm crazy apparently.

I miss Calgary and everyone in it. especially Kel and ... you know who you are and I truely wish you were reading this. If you are, just stay strong because right now I am weak and can't do nothing for u. Anyways I hope things will sort itself out. I hope I won't die from lack of food and sleep and I hope tomorrow all my classes go properly. Anyways.. nice day people.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 9:06 PM

January 21, 2009

so many things to write about but i can't seem to type...
Jamica ♥ ♥ 11:57 PM

half-hearted :(

January 18, 2009

Time:10:00PM
Mood: stressed & distressed?
Music: Fantasy - Danny. F
Drinking: Nothing
Eating: Nothing
Browsing: Youtube
Want to: kill someone

Today was half horrible, half terrifying and half okay. Morning was bad, sooo boring and I felt so isolated. I felt half-hearted all morning and to cheerful myself up I went shopping, bought 3 new tees. I was happy too because some guys said I looked cute. hehehehehe okay should stop bagging, no big deal, they were too old for me anyways. yeaaah then I went to Walmart and bought some food.

Then got back late, super tried and yeah. Realized I had my chinese so I had to study but then Melanie tells me I have to go Gala. So PANIC ATTACK. I was super stressed and the whole half-heart came back. I miss someone really badly, he is not a boyfriend but more like a brother and I miss him. So I felt torn kind of.. really sad and panicky. I studied for a while then Catheline came crashing in with Alice, goes up stairs and stuff. Then Mel tells me to leave for no reason.. probably wanna talk in private.. so felling abandoned I studied for 1/2 hour. Goes to gala, gets ditched and after some stupid photo taking finally gets back. Studies like crazy and feeling half-hearted. :(

So anyways then I chatted with Ninnart and for some magical reason I feel better. Talking to her on MSN made me less alone, she didn't do anything special. Just being Ninnart and this is why I love Ninnart. LOL But she doens't know that.
Still feeling half-hearted but a little better. hehe
Okay byebyez
Jamica ♥ ♥ 10:21 PM

January 16, 2009

Time:11:03AM
Mood: @$#%#%#%%@@@$@!!
Music: Nothing
Eating: Dove Chocolate
Drinking: Water
Browsing: Nothing
Want to: not go to gym

I really don't want to go to gym.. I just had my science quiz. FAIL. Literally. Its Friday today, me and Mel are probably gonna go to Downtown, maybe with Jas! Yay!
Write more laterz
Jamica ♥ ♥ 12:02 PM

January 15, 2009

Time:2:47PM
Mood: Impatient
Music: Ninnart's fingers
Drinking: nothing
Eating: nothing
Browsing: Ultimate Rihanna
Want to: send Ninnart to the devil himself

Its social class, its boring and I am bored. I wish I wasn't so bored all the time. I had a math quiz today, I pretty much failed it like always. Whatever, one day math would only be done by robots anyway D=

Today is pocket money, I am happy because of that. I been trying to save money as much as possible because I want to go back during March.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 3:18 PM

January 13, 2009

Time:10:31PM
Mood: Cheesy
Music: Nothing
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Browsing: DeviantArt
Want to: MAKE NINNART SWIM!!! AHHH.


Hey y'all.. well today was horrible because I had all my core subjects and my math teacher is going give us a quiz. Grrr. I have okay classes tomorrow, art, info tech and PE. I also have earth science, boo.


Tomorrow I am signing up activities afterschool, I want to do Swimming but Ninnart won't decide between swimming and rock climbing. I will be really sad if she doesn't do swimming because I'll be all alone. I hope she does swimming, wahh, I want Ninnart to do swimming. T----T


My knee is better after Daniel kicked it, it was blue yesterday but now is yellow. I refuse to say hi to him again. D: Sometimes I really hate when a "popular" guy does stupid things and everyone turns to look. hmm my knee.


Its almost bed time, tomorrow for PE we are going for a run. I actually don't really want to go running but I won't skip this time around. When I get back its Chapel, ahhh Chapel again. I hope its something not too boring. I usually fall asleep. blah.

Jamica ♥ ♥ 11:30 PM

January 11, 2009

Time:10:56PM

Mood: tried Music: err something?
Drinking: Nothing
Eating: Nothing
Browsing: nothing
Want to: sleep.
Today I finally felt the terrors of jetleg, seriously! I woke up at 5:50 and then couldn't fall asleep, then fell asleep at 8:30 but couldn't wake up. errr. I hope things are better tonight because I have classes tomorrow. Its nice tomorrow though, I only have 1 core subject which is Earth Science which I'll be chillin with Ninnart. :)

I went shopping today with Jasmine and Melanie, I bought shampoo & conditioner, face cleanser, food, plant, body wash and body lotion. It cost $36 dollars all together, I always spend so much money. D: I am trying to save up so my dad can let me go back to China for spring break. I want to leave on the March 9th and come back on April 14th and miss 1 week of school.. since well, after 1 week its long weekend again. So Yeah, I want 1 month worth of a break. LOL

Anyways it was Melanie's idea. XD
Okay time for bed.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 11:48 PM

Time:11:29PM
Mood: Hungry
Music: Nothing
Eating: Nothing.. damn food
Drinking: Nothing.. damn water
Browsing: petifsh.net
Want to: get rest & food

I am back to Victoria, and is Saturday. I will sleep and tomorrow is Sunday. I will go shop and buy some stuff that I need like a new toothbrush lol and shampoo, soap and etc. It was raining today, what a great welcoming.

Anyways tried and etc, chilled with Mel and then chatted with Ninnart on MSN. woot. how boring.
Jamica ♥ ♥ 12:28 AM

January 8, 2009

Time to go back to Vic....
Jamica ♥ ♥ 12:08 AM

January 4, 2009

Time:4:11PM
Mood: Self Concious
Music: T-shirt - Shontelle
Drinking: nothing
Eating: nothing
Browsing: Imeem Playlists
Want to: be alone


So I'll be going back to Victoria in a few days. Which kind of suck like, seriously. But I am prepared to go back, but still not ready for the Earth Science Final since well, I'll be missing a few days of school. I really hate hate Earth Science, the only good thing is I sit beside Ninnart and I can bug her all class because the teacher doesn't seem to mind. LOL


I am also doing my math final, like ALL THESE FINALS. I haven't even touched my notes, so gonna fail. I watched the most saddening movie in the world last night. It was about this girl who was a taxi driver in China, her boyfriend disappeared for 4 years, she looks and waits for him every single day. Later after getting kiddnapped and after the convicts get caught. She also finds him at the police due to a suicide that occured. She confronts him and first he lies, says that she must found the wrong person. They do a print test and tells her that he isn't the guy. After leaving the police station she begs him to tell her the truth and give her closure. He admits to be being her boyfriend but tells her that he is in love with someone else. She leaves crying. After a few days, a key and credit card appears under her door from him. She goes to find him, he is waiting at a bridge with his supposed girlfriend, she tells him he gave the money to her. He turns around and see a bunch of man he hugs her and tells her to tell the protagnist that he loves her and he jumps off the bridge and does suicide. She is right under the bridge as he falls and he dies right in front of her. A day a later she uses the key to open a volt and finds a video camera. She plays the video, its him telling her that he earned lots of money for them and how much he loved her. Later the videos turns to what he secretly taped of her for the past 4 years. It turned out for the past 4 years he been liveing right across from her apartment watching her secretly and the reason he went into hiding was because he enter a drug trade.


I was moved by the whole thing, especially when the video was playing. It was really really sad. I liked it alot.


Anyways yesterday I watched "Twilight" with my mom! HAHAHA. Its hilarious, especially at the "love" scenes. hahahaha.


Bye!

Jamica ♥ ♥ 1:10 AM

January 2, 2009

Time:8:34PM
Mood: Warm
Drinking: Nothin'
Eating: Nothing
Browsing: IMDb
Want to: Watch a good movie


Happy new year to all in Canada =) LOL It should be New Yeas in Canada. I wander how Taffy is doing, I hope he is doing good.
I am at my cousin's house tonight. We are plotting a secret run-off to Urumqi sometimes soon for a whole day of fun. I really want to eat out and chill with her at the movies and have some good one and one time with my cousin. She been so busy with College that we barely have time to hang out. :(


Anyways I am on her computer for while, maybe we can watch a movie or something. LOL Yeah, just to say Happy new year :D


Can you believe that I'll be back in Victoria in a week!?

Jamica ♥ ♥ 5:28 AM