Today was the most exhasuting and tiring day of my life. First off, I was sent to the hospital by Dr. Forbes and the lady Doctor to get things cut. Turns out thr surgeon was like, no need just don't go to class for a while and sit on a rubber ring. @$@$@@!#!!!!$@$@!! Yea, if I knew he was gonna do that then I would not have sat in the waiting room for what? 2 hours!? -.-

Okay so then it gets real fun when I get back. The nurse says I need a super hot bath, alrighty, I get my bath. I get naked and sit in the water, then I see the door is slightly open and some dude is standing out there! I was like "Hey!" and then he shuts the door and says sorry. @%#@%####@@@@!!! He BETTER not have stood there for long. Anyways I soaked in the water for a hour. Makes me ass better. Yea, then I came back and shoved in all the meds. Beautiful. Went to sleep.

Woke up, cleaned my room slightly and begged Mrs. Murtland to buy me a Subway sandwich. Yay, I got a tuna sub. I am still thinking about getting my own eletric kettle so I can drink tea whenever I want. Just I always need milk. >_< I can steal the health center. I hope this goes away by next monday so I can attend classes again. I am trying my best to study as hard as I can so I can keep up.
I love you all :) Especially you, anyways be safe for me k? 13 days till spring break for me. Sweet home.

What type of torture is this? Pain, discomfort, hunger and sadness. ALL wrapped together in one. My ass hurts enough for me to scream and shoot somebody. Ahh this is insane but it won't stop me from going apartment hunting!! I have to, I don't have much time left. So anyways going apartment hunting and then eating at subway probably, and then maybe if I can force myself to play badminton later.

maybe post some more later, see ya for now.

Its so painful and sore, I don't want to think about whats gonna happen when I need to go. Arg, this genetic weakness is a horrible one, I rather have a extra finger then this. Anyways got more meds, great, more sticking it up.

I went to the Grizzly Hockey game today, Grizzly won over Nanaimo Chippers. 4 to 1. Pretty good win, was it intense, a lot of body checking, hitting, shoving, pushing and even a fight broke out! The guys were hot of course, athletes, you gotta love them. Chipper number 61 was cute but he played like for 10 min only. lol
The game was ok, I sat with Caroline while it hurted.

While I was on the bus, my head got harrassed by Harvey guys. They kept hitting me with a balloon, ow. Oh, I zoomed down to Zellers and I bought juice and some chips. I know know, I am getting fibre pills too, I need fibre. Yea, gotta go put my meds "in" and got to bed. Wish Melanie would hurry up, I feel painful right now and want the meds.
Anyways good night.

I am tried today, in fact I am so tried all my joints hurt. I have other pain that is hard to describe. Got some meds from the infermary. D:
Yeah not the best day of my life, I am extremely tried constantlu lately. I just realized how much I hated SMUS & Boarding, nothing to make me feel better. I use to be so happy every single day and my ass never hurted but now look at me. I am sad, I lost weight (might be a good thing?), I hate everyday, I have no privacy, I have no parents or family. Boarding was a stupid mistake of mine, I should have went to a homestay at least I slept in privacy and don't have to argue over the heat. I like it warm.

Anyways a good time tomorrow is the SPCA! I love it so much!~ I love animals and that place is like a get away for me. Then I come back for the fuckin Grizzly hockey game. Hot guys or not, you caan't even see they're faces and I am stuck there sitting for 4 hours with pain in my bum. Great.

Can't wait for the 9th, going HOME! Yay! I just can't wait no more, hahaha. So impatient to leave and achieve happiness with good food, proper meds and stuff. SLEEP IN MY OWN ROOM! YAY! I'll leave past 2009's school year and then, it is off to grade 11 in Calgary. :)

I 2 and half weeks left before Spring break. Its not coming fast enough. I need it, I am too tried and stressed by eveything!

Oh, I had my bake sale, it went very well. I plan to have one more before buying the stuff for the SPCA. yea.. okay nights.

Ok, depressed today too. I don't know why but I think I am getting depression? I don't have any interest in anything, can't remember any homework, I want to cry, I am tried and all I want to do is cuddle in a ball and sleep? I don't what to do anymore, life is getting drained right out of me.

But just remember you, that I will always love you where ever you are. No matter what happens to me, you stay strong, if I ever die at least you will live. No, if you don't understand what I am talking, I don't want to commit suicide just yet. Nor will I ever..

I lost the reason in life, will I didn't lose it, I just kind of.. don't have it. I hate that. People I love are far away, people I want to love don't exist... yet, people who love me are far away and people actually love is not around here. Hard to understand the jabbrish I typing? Love is a strange thing, its defination really depends on the person so if you think I am just a depressed asain girl with no friends or life then hm, good for you and stop readin my blog. D: You know what I usually say, I have a life you don't get it and I have friends but you just can't see them. Ok, loser = me.

I hope your day is better then mine, I think I need to see the doctor if this continues, don't want to haunt Symon's house in the near future. Yea, see ya.

I was suppose to bake goodies today but I can't sadly because none of the kitchens from House Parents can be used. This is for chairty yet god can't even help me a little bit. Anyways, this is what I am doing, baking other 24 chocolate chip cookies, 3 cakes & iced. If I can get all that done by tomorrow, good job me. Caroline can't help and I don't know think Ninnart can either. I'll try Lynli or even Kira but it will get done. The sale is changed to Wednesday because we have no cake or cookies done

I am so tried. -_-; I feeli like I am goinging to sleep right now. I have to call the Apartment this week. I still haven't went on a hunt so yea, I'll just get the ones I found on the internet set up for viewing. I think I mayb set up 2-3 off the internet and 2-3 I found near here. I am hoping to do so viewing this weekend on Saturday or Sunday. Shelter on Friday and Saturday maybe Glengarry but Sunday, I am free.

Just so sad and grumpy today, I feel like slappin someone. Errrrr. Bad day, need sleep, emotional, no boxing stuff.. f.u.c.k. I hate this. Tried. Maybe I can dose of for like 30min or something. Anyways chaos!

Scamp here, defending his carrot. :3

Huey, a most cuddle, scared out of his nuts by a crow.

Andy here, curiously looking at me for carrots.

Barry with his curly hair, he chews on mine XD.

Every1 call him Bee6 but I can him Brownie. :D

This is Rickie and ehhh forgot name, real sweeties.

Its scamp again but his face looks hilarious XD.

So the animal shelter is just a great and lots of fun. I played with Camren the kitty too~ It was a lot of fun, this other volunteer told me about a story of a pet rat that lived at the shelter a while ago. Its gone now but yeaaaa, CUTE.

Glengarry Was fun, sad and moving for me. A person there name Krista has Huntington's Disease and as you know, they are metally and physcially damaged. She was very cheerful and talkitive. She told me about her family, her brother and the sadest part is her Baby. She gave birth to her baby in a 20 hour labrour session, I don't know if it is long or not. Anyways she has photos of her baby all over her room, photo books. Her baby is beautiful and cute!! It was sad because told me she knew she had huntington's diease but she was so glad that her baby didn't. I nearly made me cry. She also said her bestfriend died from braincancer but so her baby was named after her. So sweet and sad. I painted her nails a bright sad with sparkles, she wanted her nails to be a green color so I promised to do it for her.

Why do things like that happen to good people? Crista is not a bad person, she didn't deserve huntington's disease nor did her baby deserve to be affected by such unfairness. If god is reading this, fix your weights because far is not here.

The bake sale for the SPCA was a semi-success. We are having other round on Tuesday. Hope things turn out great, thanks to Ninnart, Caroline, Alice, Lynli, Mue and whoever else helped and offered help.

I think the next bake sale will be great. I am planning harder then usual. I hope I can finish all the homework for this week. Today was the Valentine Dance, didn't go because.. well.. obvious reasons and yea. Have a great Valentine Day, make sure the people you &hearts know it! Good night everyone.

I am dead busy today, I got a 96% on my Madarin test seeing that I study for 30min, 2periods before the test. hahaha. I have to go for the quiz of chapter 29 on Friday. Shit. I have so much work to do and I didn't do my physics homework. I am so dead. I will bring it with me for Business and during lunch break I'll do it. Damn so little time today. I missed my meeting with Vikki too.

Anyways I baked today with Caroline and Ninnart, it was so much fun. Ninnart couldn't talk properly and we had some flash backs of good'old times! I realize how much I miss Calgary and China. I also miss having the family like friendship with real people. Oh well, there is real people here too and they are great but there are only a few. To tell you the truth, I actually hate rich people. I don't hate all the rich people but most of them. They pretend to be nice, they pretend to care but when your rich you take to much for granted. When you been down low and stepped on you understand that every glass of water you drink is special.

Maybe I volunteer to much but when winds are your walls, the glass of water was from a public bathroom tap and you last real meal was a week ago it just makes everything so much more beautiful, great and precious. I am not saying I am one of those people since I am not poor, and not that I want to be but being in a private school with wealthy children really showed me something. How mature the public school low class children work, how different they thought and how much more responsible! These kids take money from their parents and all they think about are boys, clothe and the "latest". Then when you think about the middle-low classes, they think about what to eat, how it can contribue to their family and their future.
Not all of them are like this, maybe just the one I know. What the hell am I blabbin about? Everyone in Victoria don't know the real me and what kind of person I actually am because I can't in this enivorment and that is why I hate boarding. I live for SERVICE, service to others, its my passion but how can I do that when everyone here only pretends to care and actually don't. What happens when the lamb is dropped into a pit with lions. I can't be too nice here, everyone is nice but only a few is truly nice and "kind".

I don't know why I brought this up now but just made me think you know. The difference of the two worlds. I miss the ghetto places and the asking hookers if they wanted a information for a health centre. lol Strange Jamica. >D

I have homework but I want to blog anyways. =P Today, sadly is Monday and sadly, I am back at boarding despite how much I hate it because I want to be outside in the dark, in downtown with my BFFs and drinking diet coke. OR, better yet, in my room with my OWN TV watching chick lits or drooling over hot men like Chris Evans or Sean Faris. *sign* Has anyone seen the lowly rated movie Leeches? Haha, it is one of the most stupid and horrible movies ever... but.. there is a scene where *cough*hot*cough*stupid*cough* Josh Henderson is tied to a bed getting worked up over a chick his about to ? bang?, the girls leaves for a condom? But then he is eaten but leeches which just shows what lust can do to you. :) But you gotta say the scene was funny and the muscles are quite the turn on. lol okay you are probably staring at me like, what is wrong with this sick girl? But hey, guys can drool over a bombshell's ass and boobs then a girl can drool over a hunk's muscle.

I am still tryin desperately to finish tombraider but I'll tell you now the game is hard as hell and can drive you to insanity but its the most addictive thing you'll ever play.

I have this work pretty much planned already, anyways.. this is how its gonna go:

1. Tuesday/Wednesday Baking like insane.
2. Thursday, first bake sale @ Lunch, Afterschool and Afterprep :)
3. Friday SPCA w/ Ninnart and piggin'
4. Saturday Glengarry Hospital
5. Sunday: APARTMENT hunting! weee. lol

Yea, this week is HELL. With all the homework and stuff, I can't wait till next week. Why? My cousin supposely is coming to visit me, I am so exicited. THEN 2 weeks later... SPRING BREAK MY DARLING! woo.

Tomorrow I have Madarin first, must study for test. For now I am busying working on Math & Business. Since I am a retard, I am starting a tag.

It is VERY simple, write 5 things you love or hate.

1. I love animals
2. I hate boarding
3. I love going to downtown after dark
4. I hate brown hall cuz it taste gross
5. I love my fish Taffy

Go tag someone, just one or two and if you like it, 3,4,5,6. Up to you. go.
I tag Ninnart. fssh, who else can I tag?

How do you denie evidence? Ninnart was caught with a man that is actually a underwear model! Too bad I couldn't focus on his face! D:

Yea, so longweekend is here! Its half over already ._. I am so sad because of that. Anyways today I didn't do much, I went to Purple Garden with Ninnart and Mue. Tomoya was suppose to be there because I was suppose to ask him to come but, he was still sleeping, eh, loser.

I wish longweekend would never end, don't want all the sickin homework! Ahhh. Yea I didn't even start on the History, Physics and English homework. I should work on Madarin because I have my quiz on Wednesday. Scary.

So anyways me and Ninnart went to the SPCA on Friday and I had a BLAST! I love love love the small cuties. We took pictures so defintely be showing you some picturs. I think Ninnart looks good in the pictures, she is so happy! Smilin for her sexy underwear model boyfriend. hahaha XDD

This guy here is Huey! He is super cute.

Ninnart's favorite piggie, Scamp.

This lil dude is Popeye, sweet name huh?

Ninnart cuddling up Scamp and so into it, she is ignoring me.

Ninnart flasing her sexy smile at Underwear model, [insert name].

Me and Huey over here, hehe okay enough pics.

I have one last thing to say to the world and that is boarding sucks and Tomb Raider is very addicting. nights =P

Today was a wonderful day ... not I got my every girl's nightmare monthly. Yes I feel grumpy and slightly emotional again. Urg, anyways thanks for Tracy and Jenny I got my girl stuff. I mean I wasn't allowed to sign out today because apparently you can't sign out if you went to the inframery! Wahh that is a stupid rule.

I am happy that my fundrasier is going according to plan because Lynli decided instead of selling it at Wenman we go to each boarding house and common rooms ask if they would like something. Yay.

Oh and since Ninnart can't wait no more, here is my drawing of Ninnart on the night of Christmas Dinner. She is your one true love Super Sexy hot and delicious with a irresitable 6 pack under model where ever you are. lol Please come and claim her, she is waiting for you and your delicious-ness. You guys will have the most beautiful babies and you first born girl is to be named Jamica Jr. hehehe lol So yeah.. come handsome model, come.

Now come sexy under model and claim your lady.

Anyways tomorrow I am going to homestay, with a fuckin guy. Yay. =(

Tomorrow I swear I will have dinner at Brown Hall with Ninnart. I promise. I will. I will. I will not spend money. I will. I know brown hall taste like shit and the orange sometimes get mixed with milk but hey, atleast its a month fresh right? Yea..
and that lady always smiles at me right? Its not that bad, its not the worth place you could be..

I am so pissed at Limewire, WHY ARE YOU SO SLOW? AHHHHH. God. I am trying to down 2 songs, is that so much to ask for? Geeez. Still waiting for it to load and I am waiting for Ninnart to text me so I can go over to Timmis and steal her phone card cuz my rang out of minutes. Blah.. >_<

I almost forgot to mention something, I am running a fundrasier for the SPCA to donate Blankets and Toys to animals in need? Nice huh? I think this is for the SPCA and next time, maybe I can do sometime of sponsorship next. This is what I do you know? My thing. lol I hope everything goes well, I am hoping to sell over 200 cookies within 3 days and lots of cake and smoothies. All the money will go and buy animals blankets and more. hahaha. Nice huh? I have lots of support from friends, I hope I can get cakes to bakers around 36-72 cookies depending how many I have I have. I am planning to make around 10 boxes of cake over 3 saling dates and 2 packages of frozen strawberries and Bananas. Maybe I can snatch a few from Brown Hall. hehe

Alright, see ya