Then on Saturday my dad called, my mother demanded that I confront him about him getting married and blah blah blah. He got scared I guess when he heard my mom yelling and hang up. W.T.F I didn't want to confront him about it because I was hoping he would tell me himself but once again I am disappointed. My mother then throughout dinner hated on my dad (I don't blame her) and blah blah blah. You can say it was a bad dinner. I couldn't get out of there either because she was talking to me but then I don't wanna hear it anymore.

I been hearing the problems about my parents since june 2009, its 2010, its over and I wish my mom would stop cursing, yelling and complaining about my dad. I get it, his a retard who gave up his family to be with hos. I get it all. I'll never forgive him for it either but can we PLEASE move on? My mom keeps telling him I should hate him too but then I when I do express hatred (because I am pissed off) she then tells me oh, we all make mistakes. The truth is despite all that happened, no one actually even considered how I feel about this. I want to move on but it seems everyone is stuck in the pass. My mom refuses to move on and she drags me back into the pass with her. Everyday she is like, look what your dad did to me, look my stupid life, my life is so patheic, look at how pitiful I am, I am not getting enough sleep, I am so depressed everyday thanks to your dad, I think I might die soon, I am never going to live long and blah blah blah. What do you want me to say? That my dad should tied to a log and cut to pieces?

I don't known why she says these things to me. To make me feel her sorrow, anger, annoyance with her? I really hate it when people say stupid gloomy pointless things to me, it ruins my whole day. Its like someone saying "My cat die and now I want to die too". You know it won't happen, you can't be mad because they are sad, its pointless and does not concern you but then it ruins your day. She says hates him to get guts but then she lets him in our house and etc. I told her to take him out of her life and URG. She is so contridicting. I can't even try to chat with her about it because she just freaks out and..urg. Yes, I had to grow up too fast. I had to learn how to cook, I have to learn how to take care my emotional broken down mother, I had to learn some pretty disgusting things about my dad. I lost my childhood thanks to my unstable parents.

But I plan to take it back, once I leave those two "complicated" people and go to unviersity I want my childhood back. I'll never think about the problems they have, I am going to study hard but I plan to wake up at noon, eat candy all day, play PSP and wii and I plan to live happily rater being annoyed 24/7.

I planned to study math and biology but I ended up studying niether. This weekend went by too fast, before I could sit down it disappeared. God, why do this always happen to me??

Speaking off god, I had a conversion with Louis and if God Exist, his not a wrathful mean guy who floods people and send people to hell for not worshipping him. His a COOL CHILL guy who likes to party and eat Doritos. He probably looks like Santa Claus minus the red suite. OK? GEEZ. Its not disrespectful to say he looks to Santa to you all conversative christians. BTW. If your hating on others because you can't accept them, your NOT going to heaven. I don't care if you hate in the name god, if you have hate in your heart you ain't going no where! I probably ain't going no where either, I like earth, might stay here a couple life times.

oookkkay its obvious I need sleep, nights.