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January 18, 2009
      Time:10:00PM Mood: stressed & distressed?
 Music: Fantasy - Danny. F
 Drinking: Nothing
 Eating: Nothing
 Browsing: Youtube
 Want to: kill someone
 
 Today was half horrible, half terrifying and half okay. Morning was bad, sooo boring and I felt so isolated. I felt half-hearted all morning and to cheerful myself up I went shopping, bought 3 new tees. I was happy too because some guys said I looked cute. hehehehehe okay should stop bagging, no big deal, they were too old for me anyways. yeaaah then I went to Walmart and bought some food.
 
 Then got back late, super tried and yeah. Realized I had my chinese so I had to study but then Melanie tells me I have to go Gala. So PANIC ATTACK. I was super stressed and the whole half-heart came back. I miss someone really badly, he is not a boyfriend but more like a brother and I miss him. So I felt torn kind of.. really sad and panicky. I studied for a while then Catheline came crashing in with Alice, goes up stairs and stuff. Then Mel tells me to leave for no reason.. probably wanna talk in private.. so felling abandoned I studied for 1/2 hour. Goes to gala, gets ditched and after some stupid photo taking finally gets back. Studies like crazy and feeling half-hearted. :(
 
 So anyways then I chatted with Ninnart and for some magical reason I feel better. Talking to her on MSN made me less alone, she didn't do anything special. Just being Ninnart and this is why I love Ninnart. LOL But she doens't know that.
 Still feeling half-hearted but a little better. hehe
 Okay byebyez
Jamica ♥ ♥  10:21 PM
 
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